||[Nov. 14th, 2009|07:49 am]
It seems to be starting back up. Not at the level it was last time, but it starting just the same. My husband is back at yelling me. I don't remember what our son did last night, but he was yelling at him. I could hear him in my front room. I never left the front room please keep that in mind. I don't remember what I did after he was done yelling at our son he was in the front room. He told me to shut up When I do try and talk and explain something I am interrupted all the time. It is bad when I can not get a coherent sentence out, and I lose my train of thought. What really makes this bad is my hubby is a minister. Minister of what I don't know. It can't be of God. Not when he destroys us. He doesn't he realize worse may not leave bruises that can be seen, but they are there just the same. I don't make enough money to make it on my own, and I will not live in government housing. I won't go to a home for battered woman and children. It is out of town. I know the school system, teachers etc... here plus my job is here. So I am lost with no place to go but to shut up and take the verbal abuse.